Lamar Odom Breaks His Silence

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ore than a year after his brush with death, former Los Angeles Lakers star, Lamar Odom recently sat down with ‘US Weekly’ for an interview about the demise of his relationship with Kardashian and his struggles with addiction.

The 37-year-old, who completed a stay at San Diego’s Casa Palmera rehab center in January, told the publication that he suffered 12 strokes and two heart attacks after being found unconscious at a Las Vegas-area brothel in October 2015.

Read the excerpts from the interview below:

“I was home by myself. Bored. I wanted to get out and have a good time,” Odom recalled of the fateful night. “Looking back, I might have had a drink to get the mood started, but was I drunk or on drugs? Not at all. I remember lying in bed. Two women were in bed and then I fell asleep. That’s all. When I woke up four days later, I was trying to pull the tubes out of my mouth.”

“I was hiding it for a while, but then I got frustrated and was like, f**k it,” Odom said of his drug use. “Around two years before we split up [in 2011], I was in the man cave [Khloe] had made for me and she caught me. She was disappointed. So was I. The sad thing about it is, I don’t know if I was disappointed because I was actually doing the drug or because she caught me. She knew I was doing cocaine the whole time after that. It was my drug of choice. I’m not going to say she accepted it because that would be the wrong word. Tolerated would be a better word.”

“If there is one thing I regret when I was married, it was having multiple affairs with different women,” Odom said. “That wasn’t the stand-up thing to do. I wish I could have kept my d**k in my pants.”"It probably helped the end of my career come along a little faster because drugs killed my drive to want to train and be in shape. It killed that and my sex drive. The only time you can f--k is when you take coke."

"I'm a walking miracle. I had no choice but to become stronger," says Lamar, who has been spending more time his two teenage children. "I'm here talking to you. So, I guess I'm winning."
“Living sober, meaning no drugs, is a great feeling. Being in the moment is important — how you react, respond, create,” he said. “If I would have done coke last night, you would have gotten some dickhead here trying to get out of here fast. But you’re getting Lamar now.”

-Devashree Goenka